Digging Deep | Write It Down

Hello Friends! I realize this months post for Digging Deep is a week late, but better late than never right? Actually, this month snuck up on me, and I realized it on the fifth and didn't have my thoughts ready to write. I was getting my thoughts together but then Working man got sick and we all know plans change when the husband is home. Hehe!

So here I am, a week late. Today's Digging Deep isn't going to be SUPER DEEP. Today I just want to write briefly on the importance of writing down things that God is teaching you. Sometimes I read less during my devotions and take the rest of the time to write what God has been working on in my life, because let's face it, we don't always have time everyday to write, and sometimes He's teaching me things while I'm cleaning the house or fixing supper. But I believe it is still important to write about those things God has been teaching on so we don't forget. It may be things He's convicted you about, truths He's making real in your life, or just blessings you are so thankful for.
Why Write When God Speaks? 

• Arsenal

            Your trial may come again and again. But if you write down the things the Lord has taught 
             you you have ready and waiting arsenal. Scriptures you've meditated on, truths to cling to
             that are like an old friend, and the comforting character of God.

• Reflection                                                                                                                                       

             If the Lord so chooses to finally remove your trial, you will have a beautiful record of the
             rocky path you walked and you will see His footsteps, and you can rejoice in the goodness of
             the Lord. You have a written testiment of the working of the Lord in your life, how He's used
             this to grow you, break you, mould you.

• Equipping
You and I have no idea of whom the Lord may place in our path who may be walking that same trial. Who needs to hear about the goodness of God in your life, so they can have that hope to desperately cling to in their life.

This week I've spent some time meditating on Scripture, hymns, and watching the ways God aligns messages, testimonies and cards in our life. And I want to remember it. I NEED to remember it. So I'm writing it down. 

You see, along with Working Man being sick last week, I also found out I'm going to be an aunt, again. An Auntie and not a mama. Everyone deals with heartache differently, I need a day or two to just process. To pray and cry and process. Please believe me when I tell you: I really don't want all my blog posts to sound the same, to always harp about the woes of infertility. Your struggle is very much the same as mine, whatever it is, mine just happens to be infertility. Struggles come in many forms, it may be: money trouble, wayward children, parents who've passed away, rejection by a friend, or chronic pain, I don't know. But you grieve, you suffer, you walk that trial much the same as I walk mine. So bear with me, as I share the things the Lord has taught me this week during my trial.

My first place to run to when I am sad is the Psalms. It's full of comfort, promises, and hope. And lately I've been repeatedly going to Psalm 62. I wait on the Giver of Life for children, and that Giver is a rock, He is my solid. This storm was no suprise to Him, and I need to cling to the Rock. I need to pour out my heart, this broken, selfish, sinful, heart, and wait on Him. To trust. trust, Trust, TRUST, just like the beat of my heart.

When a wave of self-pity and grief rolled high I talked to Him as the tears rolled down. I talked to the One who knows all, and fixes all. And because I fixed my heart on Him, He fixed my heart.

I realized anew that the person I wanted most, outside of Christ, was my husband, because he is my best friend. I wanted no other. And I am so thankful for how strong and close our marriage is.

I meditated on Scripture a lot and on the words of the hymn Nearer, Still Nearer. I sang it while I vacuumed. I sang it as a prayer, because that really is my heart.

Grace is what I asked for. {Grace- God giving me something I don't deserve} We don't deserve children, or anything for that matter, but I'm asking Him for a child. For that which I don't deserve. And I know He decides, I want His will.

I was in the book of Isaiah in my daily Bible reading, because that's where the Lord knew I needed to be. Principles that He taught me:

Is. 51
/11/ - He can give gladness and joy for sorrow and mourning.
/12/ - He is the Comforter
/16/ - The shadow of His hand, His blessed hand is over me. Shielding, protecting, comforting. I. Am. His.
Is. 53
/3/ - Christ is aquainted with grief, He knows it, understands it, feels it.
/4/ -On the cross, when He hung there, he bore my grief and sorrow over our infertility. He knew two thousand years later we would hurt like this and He carried that hurt for us. He knew this pain.
Is. 59
/1/ - The Lord's ear never tires from hearing me. Ever. I can always come to Him, He never tunes me out or doesn't pay attention.

He. Is. Faithful. And I want to be faithful to Him. For the rest of my life.

These are just some of the things I recorded. That I didn't want to forget. And I need to finish before I forget the rest, the way He aligns my steps, providing comfort, strength, and even joy for the journey.

Take time and write down the things God is showing you. It's worth the effort and time to reflect of the goodness and faithfulness of God.